Saturday, February 21, 2009

Wedding stuffs

Wow I've written a lot of these today. This is the wedding update (the full one, all those others were captioned.) so if you have any questions or comments this would be the place to put them.
Here is what we know so far:
Date: October 17th 2009
Place: Spokane, WA
Colors: Hunter/Forest Green, Gold, and White
Symbol: fleur de lie (I found all sorts of cool info on the fleur de lie. Many random coolness.)
Bridesmaids: Tara, Mika, Mithril, Mindy, (I haven't got to ask the last person I want so I'll wait until I know her answer for sure.)
Groomsmen: James, Hunter, Bryan, David, and Mike (I don't know if any of them have actually said yes to Matthew yet, but I know those are whom he's planning to choose.)
Maid/Matron of Honor: Tara
Best Man: No clue. I think they were going to have a Battle Royal on Wow to see who gets to be the best man. I can't decide if gamer geeks are just that cool or just that pathetic. lol.

And for the actual planning of the wedding itself I'm happy to say I've been able to start and am confident I can get everything ready and assembled with hardly a problem at all. I know how I'm going to decorate (though the layout of course depends on the actual building) what my cake will look like, what kind of finger foods we'll be serving, music, dancing (I had my mind set on one song for Matthew and I to dance to but now I'm torn between it and another. Maybe I'll toss a coin. :p) If you think I'm missing anything reception wise please let me know! I want to have things planned, down to the last detail if possible, far in advanced so that I can make sure things happen that way. I'm terribly stingy in case you didn't know. xD

As I don't know who all we will be inviting, or who will be coming for that matter, I haven't decided where the wedding and reception will be yet. The nearest LDS church would work very well, (and free to boot!) but Matthew hasn't Okayed it yet so we shall see.
The projects I will be doing myself (or very kindly and lovingly will be forcing someone else to do for me. :D) include the invitations, the cakes, the flower girl basket and cornet, the ring bearers pillow, the tableclothes, the bouquets and bootnieers, the wedding runner (and possibly an arch to stand under. I know how to do balloon arches but they are really annoying. I'm thinking I'll get a trellis and make it up myself.) and I might possibly add my own touches to the reception desk as well. Tannis gave me a beautiful and perfect book that will be our reception book itself, but you know me. I might just use an actual quill and ink, and where will most of you be then? lol.

I'm also going to be doing the embrodery on my own wedding dress, which means I must first make the stencil and after we have the fabric all cut and laid right I'll have to draw it on so I can trace it. I'll be doing a different kind of stitch than my usual embrodery so I'll need to start practicing that as well. I have'nt decided what kind of stitch I will use yet, but I've found books on Monograming that I could probably put to the same use. Although it's entirely possible I could do some beading on the dress I've decided against it. Beads snag and rip off after time, I intend to make this dress last. >:D

I already know how to bake cakes of course, but I've never tried anything to fancy (except the pumpkin cake roll and that was only because dad was there with me every step of the way.) Plus I once saw a cake...the most beautiful cake their ever was...and my heart has been set on duplicating it since then. It's going to take a lot of work to make that cake and I haven't even figured out HOW they got it to look the way they did yet, but I will. Oh yes I will.
Tara has suggested in the past that I talk to Tecia since she's so creative and has had practice making unusual cakes before. I don't know when I'll have the time to sit and talk to her about it though, and it's not so very pressing yet so I'll just stew on the idea some more for a while.

I was delighted to find a journal set with wedding plans in it, old plans and things I had wanted and forgotten that I can now reincorperate into my designs now. Things like my wedding march (which I still have the song but will have to edit for timing when we find the right building.) designs and ideas for my flower girl's dress, as well as jobs for each of my neices and nephews. Unfortunately, with the wedding being here and not in Juneau, I'll have to rework some of those plans. It is highly unlikely that every single one of my family members will be there. (Although my parents and siblings have no choice. The one thing I have stood firm on since Matthew asked me to marry him the first time was that my family would be there. If even one of them can't make it I will postpone it. Don't believe me? I wouldn't recomend trying me to find out, I am very serious and will be MOST displeased if one of them tries to slip out of coming.)

I've even planned down to what my bridesmaids will be helping me with on the big day. Mika and Tara are in charge of my make-up, (I actually intend to wear some!) Tecia, and Tannis if she's able to come, will be doing my hair, (I've been finding pictures of hairstyles I like and once I've collected enough I'll send them to Tee and we'll begin planning what I want.) I don't know if Mindy will actually want to do anything, I don't know how she feels about me marrying her brother at all, and I don't know if Shanda will want to but I was going to ask her to help me with my nails. Mithril will be doing my jewlery of course, and I WILL be paying for it, whether she likes it or not! I know her to well, she'll make something absolutely gorgeous and sparkly and then be like "It's your wedding present!" and I will have to beat her. :p Just kidding. Mostly.
I will also need her help, and need to look up, how to make the crown I want, plus talk to Tecia about how it will fit with my hairstyle. I have a general idea, and I think I could make it myself without Too much trouble, if I can find wire that is thick enough, but still workable. I have plenty of silver wire to practice with though, and I've made one or two things that are similar enough to what I want. I'm possative I can figure it out in time.
Kathy Buell wants to make my garter, which I think is awesomesauce of her, and Aunt Angie has the perfect cake topper that she said she'd save for me. I think I will ask Tara to make me a pair of shoes like Tecia had, they were so cool! And it would be nice to have comfortable tennies on when walking down the isle or dancing. :P

The isle runner still has me stumped. It has to be a very wide one, (and the isle does too obviously) because I will be walking down it with both my parents not just my dad. (As strange a thought it is I'm still trying to figure out how I can stay arm in arm with them both and still hold my bouquet. Laugh if you must but I meant it when I said I wanted EVERY detail down.) Mom suggested that I could make my own, since I will be doing the table clothes myself, and I think that would be best too. Of course it also depends on the building we will be in, for length and width, but I think I will do a wide green border running up the sides...maybe a fleur de lie on either end. Of course, if it turns out to be to big a hassle I can scrap it without a problem. I've also got the flower girl basket in mind just how I want it so.....Ooooo! I've just had an idea! The basket is going to have green lining inside and green ribbon as the handles trim, with a gold border on the rim, but I just remembered mom telling me about some green cloth that had gold fleur de lie's on it that she found...that might be really pretty too...I haven't decided yet what to do with that material.

I think I'm done with this update. (I didn't mention anything about the flowers but it's 3 already and I haven't done most of what I wanted to get done today. So I must away and save that for another time.) Away with me I go. <3
-Kayla

Friday, February 13, 2009

One last note

0.o I just realized that today is Friday the 13th.....Woot!!! I have totally proven that bad luck doesn't exsist!!!! Boo-Yaaaa!!!! :p

I'm the luckiest

Waaaaaaaaaahhhhhh! Matthew is so freaking great!!! <333333333333
Back story for that statement: As for making wedding plans, it kept being put on hold due to other things being first...packing, moving, unpacking, and the store opening. I've tried to reduce the stress level on him by not talking about it, switching what it was I was asking about, til it got to the point all I wanted from him was a list of friends that he would want to go, and even that didn't look like it would ever happen.
Yesterday (it being 3:45 am) I had finally just asked him outright to write me even the beginning of a list and we got into a small argument about it. Matthew doesn't like to feel pressured, which I can relate to and have been trying to be wary of...but what I was asking of him was not a big thing and other people's schedules are ridding on when and where our wedding will be, so I exploded a little bit at him. (I'm not trying to make my explosion any more or less than it was, I did a pretty spiffing job of controlling my temper if I do say so myself.)
Well, after our minor tiff I tried to change the subject so we could at least have an enjoyable evening, but he was still being really pissy about it and I was like "Grrr! I keel you!!" inside my mind. So I called my lovely, lovely father and chatted with him about it, he giving me the sage advice that I should continue to try and control my temper because I would most likely see it in a different light tomorrow morning.
(I on the other hand was like "Goodnight Wesley, good work, I'll most likely kill you in the morning." :p)
After Dad I chatted to Tara a bit and she also told me to keep my temper and try to find another way to explain myself. She's hott like that. <3
Anyway, so I went home and ate dinner, and sat with Matthew and read, and did all the normal things we would do but there was this "Wall of Silence" between us that I couldn't break. (Everytime I looked at him he was like "What?" and if I asked if he was okay he'd always say yes so...)
So eventually...at like 8:30 or something I was like...."I'ma go sleepy times now." but before I went I was looking at him again and he said "what?" and I told him that I was trying to figure him out, and he told me "Don't even bother trying." :(
So I was very sad and went into our room and prayed and cried, and cried and prayed for a little while, and when I had finished these things I tried to go to sleep but I remembered my promise to never go to sleep angry (I wasn't angry I was sad but you know...) and I know that Matthew doesn't like it when we do things all seperate like so I decided I could go out and play the DS for awhile. (Although I only lasted until 9:30 because all my crying had made me REALLY tired and like....blaaaahh.)
So I told him I loved him, and he tucked me in :) and told me he'd be in pretty soon too. I must have fallen asleep quickly, and I woke up breifly when he came in but for the most part I was out until 2:45 this morning. I'd been having a good dream (I was watching One Piece with Isaac and Tara. I can understand Isaac 'cause he's all "Yay, One Piece" but Tara's never even seen it so I'm assuming it's cause I talked to her earlier...anyway!) and I don't know what woke me up but I kept thinking that I could hear something. Something that sounded like one of our rodents chewing on things....which I should not be able to hear from our room to their closet. >.<
But every time I turned over there was no sound so I thought I was going crazy. Ok, after a while I couldn't take it so I decided to check (I didn't want to get out of bed because it's almost impossible for me to fall asleep again afterwards, I don't even like to go to the bathroom at night.)
So I open my bedroom door and there, at the left corner, I see a small fuzy thing that looks a LOT like one of our hampsters..............Grrrr! But I wasn't quite sure, I thought my mind must be playing tricks on me since there was NO way they could have gotten out, so I slid out of bed and lean down for a closer look. It squeaked and ran. Now hampster or not, there was a rodent on the loose in my house....and it was going to pay. Both fortunate, and unfortunately, I had accidentally said "Oh crap." when he ran so Matt woke up. I didn't mean to wake him since he has to be at work at 7 am. Bleh!
Anyway, he gets up too and checks on the hampsters but tells me he thinks they're both there so now I'm thinking we have a mouse or something...but when we turned on the kitchen light and could see the little beastie....hey guess what?! It was a hampster....a very FAT little hampster now. (Who is in SO much trouble!!!)
So Matthew, being the awesomsauce personified, catches the little stinker and we take him back to the closet right? (Little punk knew he was in trouble and he started squeaking like mad. Keep in mind though the little wussies cry every time we touch them. Grr!)
So with the hall light on we could now see that we had somehow forgotten to put a cap on the hole in the top of their cage. (I never look at them or go near them if I can help it. I have come to really detest both the rats and the hampsters) That explains how he got out of the cage but how did he get past the door?
Guess what?
HE CHEWED A FREAKING HOLE IN OUR CARPET!!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna strangle that little.......Grrrrrrrrr!!!!
Okay...so there is now a hole under the door that he somehow managed to squeeze through, (I should mention that even though our hampsters are identical we can definately tell the guilty party just by having them next to each other. The culprit has become exedingly fat. >.< He's so going down for this, I promise!) and I'm am sooooooo glad we found him durring the night rather than waiting until later to notice him gone or we would have had Two holes under doors to deal with. (Though why he was coming into our room I don't know, he probably fell down our two steps and then couldn't get back up so he chewed the most convienient place.)
Yeah.....so now he's locked away again (safely this time) and I have no clue what we're going to do about the carpet considering we aren't suppose to have pets of any kind here. I would say it's Divine punishment for having them but I think it's more like that Lord poked me awake so we could find the that fatty before he did more damage. Le sigh.
So you're probably wondering what makes Matt so wonderful, and me the luckiest right?
Well besides his catching hampsters ninja skills, I knew I couldn't sleep again yet so I came out here to check my email. Guess what? There's an email from him with the list of names that I need and his real preference for where our wedding should be. T.T
He is so freaking wonderful. <3333333
So I ran into our room and jumped on him and hugged him and was like "Waaahhh! You're amazing and wonderful, when did you do that?" And he held me and told me he had written it to me when I had gone to bed. <3 (And now I cry again.) He's so freaking wonderful...I don't have the right words to say.
So this post has gotten really freaking long (it's like one of my emails) and I shall now end it by saying that Matt is wonderful, I am the luckiest, and I am very very sincerely glad that the Lord answered my prays the way he did tonight. <3
(Hopefully this crying will let me go back to sleep since it's now 4:20 am! xD)
-Kayla

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

A Grade A, grey day

Matthew has invited a friend to stay with us for two weeks...which is just the teeny tinyiest bit akward. It's just weird for someone who is not Matthew to be here with me. >.> I'm trying to not get to wigged out about it, and he has run away to work now anyways...sooooooo...nothing to report. xD
Haven't done anything worth writing about really. I wrote for many long hours yesterday, and I think I only have 30 pages or so left in this notebook before I must buy another one. >.< There are already so many lying around!! I also wish to purchase some beading wire but Walmart is the only place close that would have it and they are out. Don't know when they stock up either so...
I am stuck with no projects to do.
Except to find out how to make french toast...I am going to try and make Matthew and I Monte Cristo's for dinner. Yum, yum.
It just occured to me I'm on my last cherry coke but I don't want to go on a walk today...It means I will have to tomorrow though. I also need to find a job. :( I think I would be okay emotionally now without one except there are things I would like to buy that I can't ask Matt for...so I needs a job to get them. (Also my bank account automatically takes $5 a month from checking and puts it into savings and it will be bad if I run out...And I also want to be able to pay for my business so I need to find a job.)
Blah. I think I shall go find french toast now...and hope someone will email me. I'm kinda lonely lately. :(
<3

Monday, February 9, 2009

Still bamphing around...

So it is still today...but much time has passed so I might have something interesting to say............um, nope. Guess I don't. :P
I am very glad that Matthew is home now...he didn't call to let me know he was working late so the last hour and a half I was sitting here wondering if he was in a car accident or something. T.T It was very sad.
I got more things done today, yay! I cleaned stuff, I organized stuff, and at the same time put stuff away, and I also went on a walkabout to see what there was to see. I saw.....snow. It was cold but I enjoyed walking. Also, I have found my mailbox, lol. Yes, it was missing.
Winco opened today so it was very crazy trying to get in to see Matthew...I don't want to go shopping until they stop. T.T
Blabbady-blah.
I've realized that I used to be quite funny but...once again I am the only one who thinks so. My sense of humor is totally stiffled....well, I guess not really. But they tell me it's a bad thing to talk and laugh to myself so that's not so good.
I guess I will away....I'm gonna go read more One Piece.
Goodnight. (Insert witty line here.) :P

Dum deedee dum

Ha ha ha! I forgot I even had this and it's only been like...what? A year? My memory sucks man. Okay well to update then....I am still dating the most awesomest guy in the world, to whom I will be marrying this year. :D
A large portion of my mornings include: Listening to a church talk or CD, reading my scrips, working on wedding things, and drinking cherry coke.
My afternoons are dominated by: Wondering why no one writes back to me anymore, writing, writing, and more writing, nursing my broken fingers, and drinking cherry coke.
The evenings are the best though since Matthew is home. We do various things, but mostly it's sitting on the couch together playing video games. <3 Occasionally we watch movies (I'm not a big movie person) or do a puzzle together or something. Now that we live in Spokane though I would like to try and hang out with my aunt and uncle's family, that would be awesomesauce.
In short...(or long as the case may be) I am doing quite well, thank you. I'm happy, and being spoiled to rotten- ness. :P
About the only downside in my life right now is my eating disorder :( Which would be....that I don't. Eat. Like.....ever. I don't know why, it's just such a chore to try and make myself eat foodstuffs! And when I actually do Matthew says they don't count as it's not nutritious. Bread is nutritious! Bah...I have been learning how to cook but I can't think of things to make, so I have to call my family all the time and ask for recepies.
Alrighty then...I am done for now. Fare thee well.
-Kayla